The 9/11 Debacle and Marechal’s Tears
First I should say, in part because of my experiences prior to 9/11, I do have a lot of empathy for victims of 9/11. The World Trade Center was tragic with a very high cost in human life along with the terrible burden of grief that accompanies death in the aftermath. I do feel strongly what happened should be told. I believe if we don’t learn from our mistakes we are doomed to repeat them.
The Vision of a Child
One might not ordinarily think of Trappist monks as writers. The Trappist monks, originating in La Trappe, France in 1664, are a vegetarian splinter group of the Roman Catholic Cistercian Order. The monks are cloistered contemplative monastics who follow the Rule of St. Benedict. St. Benedict's Rule centers on the three vows of stability, fidelity to monastic life, and obedience. While not directly embracing a vow of silence, the Trappists monks respect St Benedict’s insistence that the spoken word be kept to a bare minimum. Elias Marechal begins his book, Tears Of An Innocent God, with an incredible and, it would seem, a somewhat unbelievable story. The very brief but poignant story revolves around a very young and innocent seven-year old child on the eve of 9/11.
“Colette, a deeply intuitive woman, wandered into the recreation room holding a swallowtail butterfly. Her daughter was leaning forward, staring at a collection of building blocks.
“Katie, look at what I found!”
No response. Her stare was locked inside the building blocks.
“You don’t want to see it?”
Katie continued to stare. Intensity pushed to a high level. You could feel it.
Colette went to the garden to release the butterfly. When she returned, Katie was stacking one block on top of another. Colette’s palms started to sweat.
The child shaped a second set of blocks. It stood next to the first.
Then she went to a desk and returned with a paper plane. Moments later she ran it through the first tower. It collapsed. Katie stared at the scattered blocks for several minutes. Then she raised her hand slowly, gripping the paper plane between thumb and finger, and ran it through the second tower.
Collette swallowed hard. It took while for the barely audible question to break through the silence, “Honey…. why did you do that?”
The answer came solemn and slow.
“That’s just the way it is, Mama. That’s just the way it is.”
What seems telling for me is that Katie had specifically gotten up and fetched a ‘paper plane’ so it was not like it was random play.
The parapsychologist, Dean Radin, in his book, writes about six or seven precognitive experiences people had prior to 9/11 two of which are at least quasi-documented. One of the stories was about a woman who when driving past the Pentagon became hysterical on seeing a “vision” of a plane crashing into the Pentagon. As I recall it took quite a bit of time for her to come back. Anne, a member of my Anglican church, who has told me of her own spiritual experiences and her ability for “healing” (spiritually) autistic children and occasionally a suicidal teenager, also told me there is a person at our church who spoke about 9/11 before it happened. I also encountered Flynn who had a precognitive dream of his mother dying who told me his brother mentioned it. Crystal said she had visions as well The prevalence of people who had “9/11” experiences is, of course, consistent with my thesis that spiritual and spiritual-psychic experiences originate to a large degree in group related instincts. To me it is not surprising that others would perceive such a severe ‘threat to the group,’ and fits well with my argument that some psychic experiences are produced as verbalized “perceptions of threats to the group” (as in assassination – and warnings are somewhat common in human history).
Setting the stage - "Spiritual Experiences Bio" 40 years condensed
As Jean MacPhail, an author, scholar, former fellow at Harvard Neuropathology, Vedanta Nun, as well as author of essays examining and explaining Vedanta Hinduism, observed that my personal spiritual-psychic experiences are unique - in part because over a dozen are documented (mostly via emails); yet also, in part, because the precognitive experiences relate to events outside myself! I would emphasize that in my forty years of experience, my experiences are “perceptions and reactions to stimuli as opposed to powers – or making predictions to make predictions.
I have roughly six documented dreams with reasonable interpretations that could also be viewed as “perceptions of threats” to the group parallel to animal alarm calls. The highlights of my waking spiritual-psychic experiences would be: 1. my recent 10-30-22 email to FBI agent McElwee warning about a “domestic terrorist” threat specifying a “bomb” as the weapon. 2. My very detailed, specific, and notarized warning to the FBI on October 18, 1981 about the impending attack by the then active Weathermen terrorist group. 3. My warning to the FBI prior to the assassination attempt of president Reagan 4. My call to the CIA prior to 9/11.
That being said what got me visibility though was my letter to the embassies of America’s allies and in mid-March, 2017 I sent a letter to the Canadian Embassy (each letter was different and I started with the French Embassy in February, 2017) - in which I warned about the current historical cycle America is in, which bears remarkably similar to the “Might makes Right” historical political cycle Athens was in after they defeated the Persians and Athens subsequently bullied, threatened and intimidated their allies. In July 2020, a foreign intelligence leaked revealed how Trump had viciously and sadistically vilified the leaders of our allies!
As appoint of information, I sent copies to several U.S. Senators and Congressmen. In November, 2017 I received a letter from U.S. Senator Van Hollen expressing interest in research into spiritual experiences. Included with the letter was a preliminary version of my essay “A Theory of Four Needs that [adequately] Explain and Describe Religion: The Four Primary Drives: The Need for Meaning, the Need to Belong, the Need for Ideology, and the Spiritual Drive” which is fairly popular. Later I did get email contacts for Senators Elizabeth Warren and Senator Hassan as well. I send a lot of emails - but I do know that some of them do get read. Of course, what they actually think might be a different question.
Of course, if I had better control of my PTSD back then – which for me is a serious drawback – I would likely be much better off. That has been a challenge since 2017 - which I have made a lot of improvements with. I should also highlight briefly the fact that I did also get some "unwanted attention" from my "Might makes Right warning. In my high school year book (Philips Andover Academy - school of both Bush presidents by the way) I said, "I got entangled in government through no fault of my own." I would say - unfortunately - that is a very realistic assessment of my situation.
For perspective I should add that in forty years of therapy not one psychologist or psychiatrist asked a single question about my experiences even though I have plenty of documentation - mostly via email. Furthermore, when I brought up and went over my 1981 very detailed and notarized warning to the FBI not one of the therapists said a single word - no questions, comments - no nothing. That is conditioning of course. In fact it is virtual ostracism - and gaslighting. In my view all this should have been straightened out 40 years ago, so in my view the authorities - all of them can pound sand. Dr. Neal trained at Johns Hopkins stated she had no formal education or training in people who have spiritual or spiritual - psychic experiences. For the record, the most hateful and vicious response I got was from Dr Ray De Paulo who explicit.ly conveyed to me that "All transcendental spirituality is psychosis" - a "family friend" who spoke at my father's funeral at that. As a point of order, I would highlight the fact that William James, Carl Jung, and Viktor Frankl all state that different experiences create different worldviews. On top of that categorization process - well known and well proved would clearly indicate that unusual experiences would be categorized as
The Debacle
Of course, in my own story, I speak about my collect call to the CIA, during which I went into a disjointed stream of consciousness and spoke in my conversation about the "Twin Towers" and "911" (as opposed to 9/11). Emotions for me and I truthfully felt strongly that something terrible was going to happen, so I had called the FBI headquarters in DC and asked to speak to FBI Director Freeh (at the time I was in the middle of a severe manic episode during which people have a tendency to overlook dangerous situations). I was shunted off to some “institute.” For the record I also filed a “complaint” against the Secret Service in Richmond District Federal Court, which the judge ultimately – rightfully - dismissed as “psychobabble.” Of course, I am tempted to write the honorable judge that – just by coincidence a major “issue” was “911” since I had questioned whether the Secret Service had recordings to their calls like “911” calls. Of course, “911” is easiest to arrive at mentally by association as opposed to just coming up with three – to the mind – random numbers. Personally, I suspect since I had some interchange with the Secret Service prior to that (they had to of known about my call to the FBI prior to Reagan’s assassination to try to warn them, that a couple of them may have figured, that even though I had in my manic episode clearly lost my mind figured I was trying to tell them something. I have, through hard experience, found that it totally depends on WHO you talk to and often depends on the circumstances of the conversation.
Like the nonconscious processes of that seven-year-old girl at the beginning of this essay, who really didn’t consciously grasp what she was saying or exactly all what was included in her words and vision, I also had a largely nonconscious action that I engaged in in an (unconscious) effort to prevent 9/11. For some reason, one day I went out of my way to find a barbershop. What is incredible that I actually took my “What a nightmare” documentation, and then walked into a barbershop. Even though I brought my documentation I had no conscious thought or intention at the time of talking it over with the barbershop. Consciously speaking those documents were there. I had never done that before - or since. Another incredible thing circumstance of that incident was that I had driven a long way – far from my home in Spotsylvania, Virginia. I had driven down by the river in Fredericksburg off Route 1 and went to a barbershop, which as I recall didn’t even ’front’ on the strip mall it was located in. It was tucked down a side-alley.
As it turned out the “barber” was a member of ARE (based on the documented psychic Edgar Cayce). I got to talking to her about my notarized “What a nightmare” precognitive experience. I mentioned that the “What a nightmare” precognitive warning-prediction was very detailed even in comparison to Edgar Cayce. I must say that Edgar Cayce was phenomenal at healing. Linda Caputi’s book, Epilepsy: Jody’s Journey, Linda Caputi tells not only the story of her daughter’s journey through the trials and tribulations of epilepsy, but she details how Edgar Cayce healed eight cases of epilepsy. Her book was well-researched, well thought out, with an excellent presentation of material. That is during the day and age when there were no effective drugs that are used today to “manage” epilepsy, though doctors will tell you that it simply isn’t possible, even today, to actually cure” epilepsy as Cayce did. One would have thought I had ruined her sacred cow. However, I was just stating the facts. Linda Caputi’s website is https://cayce.com/health-information/epilepsy-jodys-journey-edgar-cayce/
In 1935, in an amazing display of precognitive perception, Edgar Cayce described the pre-war forces at work in the world to a 29-year-old freight agent in reading 416-7. Cayce described a “growing of animosities” that were beginning to take shape in the world of nationalistic countries that would eventually build up to the catastrophic events of World War II. In a trance Edgar Cayce, the famous documented “psychic” stated of the animosities that “This will be indicated by the Austrians, Germans, and later the Japanese joining in their influence; unseen, and gradually make for a growing of animosities.” So, I was just stating the facts. If you look on the ARE website that WWII “prediction is highlighted and the website doesn’t bring up any others that merit an equal attention.
In any case, while I was there, the woman She kept shushing me, because my oldest son, who was still fairly young, was there. As I talked to her, she must have realized I had something on my mind. She said she gave haircuts to the head of the counterterrorist group, and she asked me if I wanted to talk to her. I said yes. However, part of my problem was that while I knew semi-consciously something terrible was coming up, it still wasn’t conscious.
I failed. And the reason I failed is that I didn’t consciously grasp what was going on so I never made an attempt to follow up. What I should have done is written out a stream of consciousness and then asked to talk to the counterterrorist group head. I was in a serious manic episode at the time and I was a complete wreck. Had I tried, I was in such bad shape, I’m not sure I could have done it. I do greatly regret that. It was really my best chance of actually accomplishing something. It is really a pretty incredible story – almost synchronicity within synchronicity. How did I happen to come across a “psychic-receptive” barber who gave haircuts to the head of the counter-terrorist group? What made it synchronicity within synchronicity was that, as I recall, her husband was a former Secret Service agent – which the agent might have forwarded to the Secret Service. I have never run across a story like that in my research and reading of psychic literature. While Russell Targ tells of a psychic named Murphy who he used in his remote viewing experiments, which generated some amazing pictures drawn by the ‘remote viewer’ of targets he did didn’t know, as being a psychic who could locate people, I have not seen any stories like this particular story. Russell Targ’s website is http://www.espresearch.com/ Dean Radin, PhD, is Chief Scientist at the Institute of Noetic Sciences (IONS). Dean Radin’s website is noetic.org/profile/dean-radin
Marechal talks about his – I guess you could call it – disappointment (at times he even seems a bit angry about the fact that God and Christ could have let 9/11 happen) with Christ about 9/11. I’m thinking of writing him and letting him know that Christ and God were there for Americans but most Americans think they have all the answers. I lived next to FBI agent Douglas about this time, and he not once sat down to talk to me – I’m quite sure because he – and most of the FBI – feel they have all the answers. I definitely said something to former FBI agent Douglas that was relevant prior to 9/11 and while perhaps it might not have been a good idea for Douglas to say anything officially, at the very least he should have talked to me to try to figure out what was on my mind. I should say I watched a history channel documentary about 9/11 and an FBI agent they interviewed said that the CIA definitely knew that Al Qaeda was in America but did nothing because they wanted to play their games and “turn” the agents.
I should say in 35 years of dealing with psychologists and psychiatrists, not one ever asked me a question like, “Why are you doing this?” or “What was going through your head when you walked into the Toledo, Ohio office. I have often wondered how they come make any judgment when they didn’t know the facts. I feel that is not only true for me but also true for the entire issues. With the exception of William James classic work, The Varieties of Religious Experiences in 1902 and one “exploratory” study I found psychologists just absolutely know nothing about people who have spiritual or spiritual-psychic experiences. If you ask me, that is just arrogance. That is the reason why I do hold both Republican Governor Hogan and U. S. Senator Van Hollen, and their staffs in very high regard. In my eyes it is something of a miracle in a very skeptical and frequently intolerant society on what can only be seen as a controversial issue to get any answer at all - especially considering that I got no response from either the FBI or CIA at all from my FOIPA requests. In fact, especially in the FBI, my impression is that they don't ordinarily document "psychic" phenomena and much of 'information' involved would likely be verbal.
In retrospect
They say one shouldn't judge another person unless you can walk in their shoes.
This is "your" situation around 2000: You have had a few precognitive experiences, one of them being my detailed notarized "What a nightmare". You have had a really bad experience with psychiatry in 1984 who had diagnosed you schizophrenic. You try to talk to a counselor and go over your "Dudayev" dream which is actually very detailed. The counselor doesn't ask about any other experiences and tells you that you are grasping at straws. Now, you have a growing awareness that something terrible is going to happen. You go to another counselor and ask them to read your "What a nightmare" experience. She tells you that you need to make peace with "it." Of course its pretty ridiculous to make peace with a process that are verbalizations of perceptions of terrorist and assassination threats to the group. You have recently divorced your martial partner. Your home building business is going to pot. You are stressed out to the max and you aren't coping all that well. Your kids are really acting up and acting out - in part because of the divorce, in part because you aren't dealing with them all that well.
The awareness that something terrible is going to happen is growing stronger and your brain is screaming at you to do something. Instincts are incredibly powerful. So, what would you do? - keeping in mind that instincts are very very powerful, and that it isn't particularly sane to ignore powerful instincts like that. And you know consciously that you do have the potential to supply information that could possibly prevent what you feel is going to happen? (I did, in the end, call the CIA and talk about the "Twin Towers") Oh, --- and you are in a really bad manic episode.
What would you do?