Preamble: Personal and Historical Background


Not surprisingly, my personal interest and my passion for the complex nexus of consciousness  and spirituality are born of some profoundly spiritual precognitive experiences - with over ten documented spiritual-psychic experiences. The pivotal, very detailed "What a nightmare- Mustard Seed" spiritual-psychic experience is Notarized and also happens to have a FOIPA stamp on it. As a quick point of order it would seem necessary to note that the DOJ-FBI appears to have decided - in their ultimate wisdom - to exclude the "What a nightmare" notarized warning from the FBI "central indexes" and - apparently - squash the exceptionally detailed What a nightmare - Mustard Seed' warning. Some of the [accurate] details are: group, fabricating bombs, money, woman, 22 were assembled, New York, death, as well as the weathermen terrorist manifesto. From the perhaps 30 experiences, my most remarkable experiences were 1. a warning about the assassination attempt of President Reagan, 2. a written warning about a Weathermen terrorist attack, and 3. a call to the CIA warning of 9/11. 4. Most recently an email to FBI agent McElwee foreseeing-warning of the Nashville Bombing that occurred on Christmas Day in the year 2020!


My pivotal "What a nightmare - Mustard Seed" precognitive warning-spiritual experience centers on the Weathermen terrorist group "Brink's Robbery as it is called. Below is a brief overview - excerpts from the FBI website and Wikipedia about the Weathermen.


Weather Underground Bombings


https://www.fbi.gov/history/famous-cases/weather-underground-bombings

On January 29, 1975, an explosion rocked the headquarters of the U.S. State Department in Washington, D.C. No one was hurt, but the damage was extensive, impacting 20 offices on three separate floors. Hours later, another bomb was found at a military induction center in Oakland, California, and safely detonated.


A domestic terrorist group called the Weather Underground claimed responsibility for both bombs. Originally called the Weatherman or the Weathermen, a name taken from a line in a Bob Dylan song, the Weather Underground was a small, violent offshoot of Students for a Democratic Society, or SDS, a group created in the turbulent ‘60s to promote social change.


When SDS collapsed in 1969, the Weather Underground stepped forward, inspired by communist ideologies and embracing violence and crime as a way to protest the Vietnam War, racism, and other left-wing aims. “Our intention is to disrupt the empire ... to incapacitate it, to put pressure on the cracks,” claimed the group’s 1974 manifesto, Prairie Fire.


By the next year, the group had claimed credit for 25 bombings—including the U.S. Capitol, the Pentagon, the California Attorney General’s office, and a New York City police station.


Brinks robbery


Main article: Brink's robbery (1981)

Some members remained underground and joined splinter radical groups. The U.S. government states that years after the dissolution of the Weather Underground, three former members, Kathy Boudin, Judith Alice Clark, and David Gilbert, joined the May 19 Communist Organization, and on October 20, 1981 in Nanuet, New York, the group helped the Black Liberation Army rob a Brink's armored truck containing $1.6 million. The robbery was violent, resulting in the deaths of three people including Waverly Brown, the first black police officer on the Nyack police force.[22][131]


Boudin, Clark, and Gilbert were found guilty and sentenced to lengthy terms in prison. Media reports listed them as former Weatherman Underground members[132] considered the "last gasps" of the Weather Underground.[133] The documentary The Weather Underground described the Brink's robbery as the "unofficial end" of the Weather Underground.[4]


The Weather Underground was referred to as a terrorist group by articles in The New York Times, United Press International, and Time Magazine.[137][138][139] The group also fell under the auspices of the FBI-New York City Police Anti Terrorist Task Force, a forerunner of the FBI's Joint Terrorism Task Forces. The FBI refers to the organization in a 2004 news story titled "Byte out of History" published on its website as having been a "domestic terrorist group" that is no longer an active concern.[140] Some members have disputed the "terrorist" categorization and justified the group's actions as an appropriate response to what they described as the "terrorist activities" of the war in Vietnam, domestic racism, and the deaths of black leaders.[141]


The group took its name from Bob Dylan's lyric, "You don't need a weatherman to know which way the wind blows", from the song "Subterranean Homesick Blues" (1965). That Dylan line was also the title of a position paper distributed at an SDS convention in Chicago on June 18, 1969. This founding document called for a "White fighting force" to be allied with the "Black Liberation Movement" and other radical movements[9] to achieve "the destruction of U.S. imperialism and form a classless communist world".[10]

Atheists and Angels!


Since I have had 30 plus spiritual-psychic experiences over-all, some might be surprised that I have no problem with atheists. That being said, I do have problems with Dogmatic "Academic Materialists", who can be sickeningly intolerant and downright ignorant at times. In general, I feel that "how people think" is their business. In my writing all I do is lay out the "pieces of the puzzle"  - as to some of the underlying processes in consciousness - especially as to how they relate to spirituality. Furthermore, not everybody is cut out for spirituality - so to speak. In fact, at one time, I was the perfect atheist, in a sense. When I was twenty nine years old, I didn't believe in psychic, prophecy, spirituality of any sort, God, miracles or Christ. Yet on October 18, 1981, I managed to produce the notarized "Mustard Seed -What a nightmare" spiritual precognitive experience.


The What a nightmare-Mustard Seed spiritual experience is by far my most exceptionally detailed and profoundly spiritual precognitive experience-warning - which in documented history is unprecedented and unrivaled - by far in detail. Some [accurate] details are: group, fabricating bombs, money, woman, 22 were assembled, New York, death, as well as the weathermen terrorist manifesto. The fact of the matter is that when I walked into the FBI office on October 18, 1981 with a notarized, written, very detailed precognitive-spiritual warning-prediction, consciously my views were actually very antagonistic to spiritual-psychic experiences. If you think about it - the miracle of the "What a nightmare-Mustard Seed" warning is that I walked into the FBI office and walked out without a net being thrown over me and being hauled off to the looney-bin.


I mean - think about it! I walked into an FBI office with no real prior experience with absolutely nothing in writing and having a stream of consciousness that at first glance (and second glance as well) appears like the utter ravings of a madman. It was a stream of consciousness and some of the lines were "monkey screams," "snake hiss," "exorcism," "Fight Hard Die Well!" When I asked the agent when I got to the line of "New York" or "Miami," the FBI agent who was seated across from me in one of the cubicles at the Toledo, Ohio FBI office, retorted angrily, "It is your dream!" Th FBI agent clearly didn't believe in psychic - but he played the part of a FBI agent and asked several questions - like about the timing.   


Anyway, even though I consciously did not believe in psychic, spirt, prophecy or anything remotely spiritual at the time, there I was - sitting down and pointing out the only three lines In the "What a nightmare" that made any sense, to the FBI agent. I went over it calmly with the FBI agent - walking out without them throwing a net over you - and then it turns out to be the longest written-documented warning-prediction in history (written documents are like hens teeth - Nostradamus only had 4 line quatrains) stream of consciousness, and the only one at the time (prior to 9/11) about terrorism. For the record, in documented history, there are only 7 or 8 documented warnings about assassination.


On top of that, the spiritually perfect - or perhaps put even better, the perfect synchronicity of the Mustard Seed Parable in the last line. What makes the situation a complete Enigma is, at the time, that I had absolutely no idea whether it would come true or not. One factor I think that resulted in the exceptional detail is that at that particular time I had reached the point where I didn't care one way or the other which way it turned out. Many artists will tell you if you think about what you are painting it will never turn out right.


Unconscious and Spiritual Symbolism


Brief Review of Unconscious Processes from the article "The Unbearable Automaticity of Being," John A Bargh & Tanya L. Chartrand - p. 462 July 1999 American Psychologist)


The idea that social perception is a largely automated psychological phenomenon is now widely accepted. Many years of research have demonstrated the variety of ways in which behaviors are encoded spontaneously and without intention in terms of relevant trait concepts (e.g., Bargh & Thein, 1985; Winter & Uleman, 1984; Carlston & Skowronski, 1994; Uleman, Newman, & Moskowitz, 1996), how contextual priming of trait concepts changes the perceiver's interpretation of an identical behavior (through temporarily increasing their accessibility or readiness to be used; see Bargh, 1989; Higgins, 1989,1996; Wyer & Srull, 1989, for reviews), and how stereotypes of social groups become activated automatically on the mere perception of the distinguishing features of a group member (e.g., Bargh, 1994, 1999; Brewer, 1988; Devine, 1989). Perceptual interpretations of behavior, as well as assumptions about an individual's behavior based on identified group membership, become automated like any other representation if they are frequently and consistently made in the presence of the behavioral or group membership features.


Three major forms of automatic self-regulation are identified: an automatic effect of perception on action, automatic goal pursuit, and a continual automatic evaluation of one’s experience. From the accumulating evidence, the authors conclude that these various nonconscious mental systems perform the lion’s share of the self-regulatory burden, beneficially keeping the individual grounded in his or her current environment. (P.462)


“Imagine for a moment that you are a psychology professor who does experiments on conscious awareness. You keep finding that your subtle manipulations of people’s judgments and even behavior are successful –causing your experimental participants to like someone or to dislike that same person, to feel happy or sad, to behave rudely or with infinite patience. However, none of your participants have a clue as to what caused them to feel or behave.”   The Unbearable Automaticity of Being, John A Bargh & Tanya L. Chartrand - p. 462 July 1999 American Psychologist)   


Conclusions:

From research as well as from personal experience it is crystal clear that Unconscious Processes play a dominant role not only in everyday processes and behavior but Unconscious Processes are especially prevalent and influential in spiritual symbols and symbolism. I would assume that other people would be roughly similar to my self as far as spiritual symbols and symbolism in the Unconscious unconscious or Collective Unconscious (as Jung theorized). Though personality, life experience as well as upbringing would influence a person those same common symbols and symbolism would also be similarly highly energized by emotions - as William James, Carl Jung, Kalshed, and Furlotti all argue.


For the record, generally, I never tell people what they should believe. I would just say to people that the energized spiritual symbols and symbolism in the unconscious is something anybody can tap into for creativity, imagination, and - even – on occasion “enlightenment” (of any and every type imaginable  As John Bargh, a researcher into the Unconscious Processes, puts it, there is a solid consensus among researchers from the various schools of thought in psychology researching Unconscious Processes that not only is the unconscious the work horse of human consciousness but also that there is a vast amount of information, intentions, motives, and, as Bargh argues, "planning!"  Furthermore, the majority of the information processed by the unconscious is outside and beyond conscious mind. So what the conscious mind "thinks" or "doesn't think" isn't as relevant as some might think. 


Brief Overview of Genetic Research on Spiritual and Religious Beliefs


Tim Spector, in the article, What Twins Reveal About the Science of Faith (Popular Science, August 8, 2013) states, “They [the researchers] estimated the heritability of spirituality to be around 40 to 50 percent, which is quite high considering how tricky it is to measure. Other U.S. studies using even more detailed questions in larger numbers have found similar or even stronger genetic influences. These studies demonstrate our variable but innate inherited sense of spirituality, which affects how we perceive the world, ourselves and the universe. This is independent of our formal religious beliefs and practices and, strangely, largely independent of family influence.”


Gilbert Todd Vance, in an article, Genetics of Religiosity, states that, “While it may at first appear that religiosity would not be influenced by genes, studies have shown that genetic effects contribute to individual differences in a wide array of traits and behaviors, including social attitudes, personality, vocational interests, IQ, and religiosity.” Furthermore, genetic studies of the hereditability of personality traits, including twin studies, including a large cross-cultural twin study completed in North America, Europe, and Asia by Yamagata S, Suzuki A, Ando J, Ono Y, Kijima N, Yoshimura K, Ostendorf F, Angleitner A, Riemann R, Spinath FM, Livesley WJ, et al. (2006), do strongly suggest that both heritability as well as environmental factors influence personality traits using the five-factor model of personality.


External Forces and Angels!


It is interesting that when I related the Mustard Seed experience to a psychology professor, who is somewhat of skeptic and his work focused on will agreed with my conclusion that there was a force at work beyond my ego-will in the "Mustard Seed" spiritual-psychic experience - and he agreed. I should mention that I've been told by several people I have angels (plural) looking out for me - something I agree with actually, though I am not really into angels and actually I wouldn't doubt that the angles put in some overtime as well. Of course, I had actually called the Toledo, Ohio, office prior to the assassination attempt of Reagan - and it has crossed my mind that might have been the same FBI agent I talked to in my call warning about the attack on President Reagan.  Here is a link to the "Mustard Seed" Experience which has at the very bottom [the hard to read] the hand written and notarized stream of consciousness with a FOIPA stamp on it.

https://www.spirittruthandmeaning.com/mustard-seed


My Guardian Angel by Robert William Service

When looking back I dimly see
The trails my feet have trod,
Some hand divine, it seems to me,
Has pulled the strings with God;
Some angel form has lifeward leaned
When hope for me was past;
Some love sublime has intervened
To save me at the last.

For look you! I was born a fool,
Damnation was my fate;
My lot to drivel and to drool,
Egregious and frutrate.
But in the deep of my despair,
When dark my doom was writ,
Some saving hand was always there
to pull me from the Pit.

A Guardian Angel - how absurd!
I scoff at Power Divine.
And yet . . . a someone spoke the word
That willed me from the swine.
And yet, despite my scorn of prayer,
My lack of love or friend,
I know a Presence will be there,
To save me at the end.


Perspective  


To understand the story behind the exceptionally detailed notarized Mustard Seed warning to the FBI, it is necessary to understand   the circumstances of my situation back in 1981 are extremely salient - which would include, in this case, political factors. In retrospect - the situation was a ready-made prescription for disaster. Ronald Reagan was President and H. W Bush was vice-president. My father, Ted Peck, at that time a corporate vice-president at Owens Corning Fiberglas, was a classmate of H.W. Bush who was a former CIA Director. Now, politically it wouldn't be likely to want my story to become public because I also am from Phillips Andover Academy as both Bush presidents are. On top of that the CIA Director Casey under President Reagan was, as the writer Woodward pointed out - literally, a paranoid when it came to President Reagan - so in a twisted paranoid mind - the fact that I was form Phillips Andover Academy and had foreknowledge of a presidential assassination, would mean - to them - there was some devious plot with Vice President Bush trying to come to power through the assassination of President Reagan. Of course the fact that I called to warn about the assassination would be an irrelevant point of information and fact to a paranoid. People in National Security are known to have some pretty wacky conspiracy theories from time to time.


The bottom line is that the likelihood of getting any rational or reasonable decision in those circumstances was somewhere between slim to none. In politics, even in ordinary circumstances it is not easy for organizations to reach reasonable conclusions and make rational decisions. Most veterans will tell you that the V.A. has problems. Many employees of agencies will also tell you that institutions have problems. In this situation there was as much of a chance of getting a reasonable decision as a snowball in hell. My read is that it made perfect sense to everyone to "bury" it and pretend it never happened. I believe it would be safe to say I got screwed, blued, and tattooed one hundred times over on my way to Sunday. And what was put into motion back in 1981 is still a problem for me. It would be my guess some of the hacking and other B.S. is a product of that, to be honest. 


The irony of the situation is the "What a nightmare" warning – which, again, is notarized with a FOIPA stamp on it, was the solution – on the face of it - to everybody's problems, as it were. It was so exceptionally detailed that any true analysis would show it had to be precognitive. on October 18, 1981. My "Mustard Seed" or "What a nightmare" notarized (with a FOIPA stamp on it) is an exceptionally detailed and very spiritual precognitive transcendental experience-warning. Some of the details in the precognitive stream of consciousness which turned out to be accurate are: group, fabricating bombs, money, woman, 22 were assembled, New York, death, as well as the title "What a nightmare" matching the weathermen terrorist manifesto. The “22 were assembled for instance, clearly related to the fact that the Weathermen terrorist gang had a shootout with the Nyack police force which the New York Times reported, after two officers were killed “had” 22 officers. Since neither the police nor the leaders of the weathermen “knew” there would be a shootout with the Nyack police force which had 22 officers. 


As a salient point of information: The DOJ-FBI (agent McElwee told me all material goes through the DOJ) has been blowing smoke for years. Despite many letters and requests I can't get anything out of them. As far as I can figure my call to the FBI in 1981 as well as the "What a nightmare document is not in the central indexes. For that reason I feel it necessary to emphasize that the "What a Nightmare" document is notarized with a FOIPA stamp (by sheer chance and coincidence, of course). The "What a nightmare" document has been on display on its page since 2017. Lastly - for the record - the reason walked into the FBI with the my "What a nightmare - Mustard Seed" warning is because after calling the FBI to warn about Hinckley's assassination attempt on Reagan I was fearful of the government (no surprise there) and I wanted to make sure "they" realized it was "psychic." For the record, I connected with Baltimore FBI agent McElwee because my computer got hacked which got exposed by emails from US Senator Van Hollen's. I believe that happened two years - or so - ago. I do actually try to help the best I can, and stay on the good side of the FBI as well, so I send her forecasts or heads up - as best I can.


   Abstract:  "Mustard Seed - What a Nightmare" Precognitive Warning-Experience


The "Mustard Seed" or "What a nightmare" spiritual-psychic experience, which happened on October 18, 1981 is an exceptionally detailed and very spiritual precognitive transcendental experience-warning. Some of the details in the precognitive stream of consciousness which turned out to be accurate are: group, fabricating bombs, money, woman, 22 were assembled, New York, death, as well as the weathermen terrorist manifesto.


Besides these explicit details, as with much of historical prophecies, there appears to be some symbolic and metaphorical synchronicities in the "Mustard Seed" precognitive stream of consciousness. The statements, “Time is at hand! Time is at hand, Angels said.” - and - “Fight Hard, Die Well! A prophet spoke!” match the deaths of the two policemen ("Time is at hand" - twice by an angel) and the death of one Brink's guard  (“Fight Hard, Die Well” a prophet spoke). Of course angels could be said to outrank prophets same as policemen outrank Armored car guards. That kind of precise detail of identifying - albeit metaphorically - specific people or types of people who would be prominent in the event is quite literally "unheard of" in the long centuries of documented historical precognitive warnings-predictions.



A Divine Insight: Mustard Seed Parable


What "Makes" the Mustard Seed - What a Nightmare experience was actually the very last line which highlights the Mustard Seed [Parable] - which turned out to be perfect for my particular situation. The Mustard Seed Parable is perhaps the most simple and straightforward of Christ's many parables. Christ's Mustard Seed Parable: Mark 4:30–32:  "How will we liken the Kingdom of God? Or with what parable will we illustrate it? It's like a grain of mustard seed, which, when it is sown in the earth, though it is less than all the seeds that are on the earth, yet when it is sown, grows up, and becomes greater than all the herbs, and puts out great branches, so that the birds of the sky can lodge under its shadow."  


I didn't really grasp the significance and meaning of the Mustard Seed Parable until recently - decades later. In my research into psychology, an important discovery for me is the Synthesis-Consensus of Viktor Frankl, Carl Jung, William James, and Emile Durkheim. Carl Jung, perhaps, stated the synthesis-consensus best, when he stated that "spirit [spiritual processes] give meaning to [his] life!" So, what makes the Mustard Seed parable particularly illuminating insight is that it dovetails perfectly with the synthesis-consensus statement "spirit creates meaning and a sense of reality." Of course, that also dovetails with Christ's statement that "Spirit is Truth" in John 5:6.  Of course this would also tie into Luke 17:21, “The Kingdom of God is within you.” - Which brings into focus Christ's pivotal point about spirit, “The Spirit gives life; the flesh counts for nothing." (John 6:63).


Historically - for the record - the Mustard Seed Transcendental Spiritual Experience is unprecedented and unrivaled - in documented history. For instance Jeremiah prophesied about the "foe from the north" as well as the 70 year exile (which taken at face value was a couple years off.  Also, time and time again, Jeremiah Prophesied the Fall of Jerusalem and the Jewish people of Judah - as a punishment of God because the Jewish people had broken their covenant with God by worshiping idols. In contrast, the Mustard Seed Experience has 10 details - some of the details are very precise - which in historical documented experiences is unprecedented. Also, for the record, I also argue that the environemtn has changed dramatically, as well.   


“Each of us carries a unique spark of the divine,  and each of us is also an inseparable part of the web of life.” - Viktor Frankl


"Spirit is the spark, or portion of the Divine that is in every entity.   Edgar Cayce: documented psychic and spiritual leader - [3744-5]


“The Kingdom of God is within you!" - Luke 17:21 


The Mustard Tree    --- John 3: 8 The wind blows where it wishes. You hear its sound, but you do not know where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit.”


I must confess that I can testify to that at some length because, from personal experiences, at times stuff comes at you - in the mind - and I'm not always sure where it came from or what it is about.

                    
        "How can I show you Zen unless you first empty your cup."

A university professor went to visit a famous Zen master. While the master quietly served tea, the professor talked about Zen. The master poured the visitor's cup to the brim, and then kept pouring. The professor watched the overflowing cup until he could no longer restrain himself. "It's full! No more will go in!" the professor blurted. "This is you," the master replied, "How can I show you Zen unless you first empty your cup."

  "Everything we call real is made of things that cannot be regarded as real.” 

Niels Bohr was a Nobel prize-winning Danish physicist, who pioneered the development of the quantum physics and theory which improved our understanding of atomic structure. Niels Bohr stated unequivocally and emphatically that “If quantum mechanics hasn’t profoundly shocked you, you haven’t understood it yet. Everything we call real is made of things that cannot be regarded as real.” 

      Spukhafte Fernwirkingen, Albert Einstein - A New Dimension for Science

In a letter to Max Born on 3 March 1947 to describe the strange effects of quantum mechanics, where two particles may interact instantaneously over a distance, Albert Einstein referred to that quantum physics effect as spukhafte Fernwirkungen, which means “spooky actions at a distance” The question of Quantum entanglement is a core issue which divides classical and quantum physics. A bit oversimplified the spin of one subatomic particle is directly connected with the spin of another subatomic particle even though separated by large distances and interactions occur at speeds faster than the speed of light. A conclusion from the experiments on quantum entanglement was that was reached is that quantum entanglement is in reality a “quantum state” that cannot be reduced or factored into the product of if its constituent states of its local individual particles but remain independent as an inseparable whole. In sum, in quantum entanglement, one constituent or individual particle cannot be fully described without considering the other(s)." 


         "A future event causes the photon to decide its past."

In an article: Quantum Experiment Reveals “A future event causes the photon to decide its past.” - Professor Truscott  Summary of Experiment: The bizarre nature of reality as laid out by quantum theory has survived another test, with scientists performing a famous experiment and proving that reality does not exist until it is measured. Physicists have conducted John Wheeler's delayed-choice thought experiment, which involves a moving object that is given the choice to act like a particle or a wave. The group reversed Wheeler's original experiment, and used helium atoms scattered by light.

If one chooses to believe that the atom really did take a particular path or paths then one has to accept that a future measurement is affecting the atom's past, said Truscott. "The atoms did not travel from A to B. It was only when they were measured at the end of the journey that their wave-like or particle-like behavior was brought into existence," he said. So, what form it would take after passing through the first grate depended on whether the second grate was put in place afterward. Therefore, whether it continued as a particle or changed into a wave wasn't decided until a future event had already taken place. Time went backwards. Cause and effect appear to be reversed. The future caused the past. The arrow of time seemed to work in reverse. 

Professor Truscott concluded that the experiment showed that; “A future event causes the photon to decide its past.” (Experiment confirms quantum theory weirdness Science Daily, May 27, 2015 Australian National University)

            Perspective & Documented Precognitive Experiences

Offhand, an ordinary person might easily think - off the top of their head - that any person who made a habit of predicting assassinations might, perhaps, be a bit "odd," "eccentric," or perhaps even a bit "off" as well. However, a review of "documented" predictions or precognitive perceptions reveals that, while the number of historically documented examples or precognitive experiences are limited, by far, the most prevalent and frequent type of documented experiences are warnings or predictions of assassinations or deaths of leaders: assassination of President John F. Kennedy by Jeane Dixon; assassination of Julius Caesar by a seer-high priest as well as in his wife's dream the night before; assassination of Abraham Lincoln via his own nightmare; assassination of Assyrian King Sennacherib documented in the Old Testament 2 Kings 19:6b-7; Catholic Saint Liguori went into a coma at the same time that his pope lay on his death bed; Nostradamus' famous quatrain 35 is viewed as predicting-prophesying the death of a French king at a jousting tournament.

          Daryl Bem’s Successful-Repeated Precognition Experiments!

The parapsychologist, Daryl Bem, through successfully repeated experiments demonstrated that precognition experiments do, in fact, produce consistently successful results. It began with Daryl Bem's 2011 article about his original experiments which produced very significant results. That article got a lot of other researchers interested. Also, Daryl Bem had the foresight to develop "kits" to give to other researchers so they didn't have to reinvent the wheel. Quite a number of researchers became involved.  

In 2016, an article about a meta-analysis of these experiments states that "When Bem’s own experiments are included, the complete database comprises 90 experiments from 33 different laboratories located in 14 different countries. A total of 12,406 individuals participated in these experiments." The article goes on to say that the results showed that the experimental design that focused on sex was by far outperformed the other designs. (A Summary of “Feeling the Future: A Meta-analysis of 90 Experiments on the Anomalous Anticipation of Random Future Events by Bem, Tressoldi, Rabeyron & Duggan). 

Both the psychologists, Dean Radin and Daryl Bem, argue vigorously that instinctual processes are involved with many spiritual-psychic experiences. Of the several variations of psychologist Daryl Bem's successful experiments focused on the precognitive perception of sexual stimuli by far outperformed all other designs. Daryl Bem's precognition experiments have been performed a large number of times resulting in repeated successful precognition experiments, even though the experiments had different designs. An article summarizing a Meta-analysis stated that "By far Daryl Bem's best performing design was 'the precognitive detection of erotic stimuli' (1.) Sex, of course is a very powerful instinct - to say the least!

Furthermore, as the parapsychologist Dean Radin, as well as others, point out, there are modern day predictions of and perhaps as many as a couple dozen of 'documented' Illustrations of precognitive experiences of 9/11 (including mine). One man who had told me of a dream of his mother dying - which unfortunately came true - told me that his brother had told him of a premonition about the World Trade Center about six months before it happened. 

            Personal & Others' Spiritual-Psychic Experiences

While, in my roughly thirty eight years of perhaps a couple dozen or more spiritual-psychic precognitive perceptions and dreams, the experiences actually occurred rather haphazardly, nearly every one could easily be described as "perceptions of threats to the group." Needless to say, these experiences must be originating in and rooted in instinctual process, and perhaps best grasped or understood in terms of  my personal human-variation of animal alarm calls. The one very detailed and remarkable "once in a lifetime" notarized spiritual-psychic experience which comparatively speaking was exceptionally detailed is what I focus on here. What makes the experience especially remarkable, in my view, that the last line of the "what a nightmare" stream of consciousness included the "Mustard Seed Parable" because, it could be argued that the Mustard seed Parable is a "divine insight" 

      110 million Americans have Spiritual-Psychic Experiences and "Normalcy!"     
Studies show that - minimally - roughly 110 Million Americans have Spiritual-Psychic Experiences! A recent review of "numerous" survey-studies of spiritual experiences by Park and Paloutzian (confirmed by other researchers such as Fraser Watts) showed that somewhere between 1/3 to 1/2 of people have experiences of one kind or another (there is a very diverse number of types and kinds of spiritual- psychic experiences) depending on what questions are asked. Park and Paloutzian stated categorically that their review did demonstrate that there is a “normalcy" to these experiences (that is, people don't immediately and automatically go off the deep end after having a spiritual-psychic experience) which social scientists have, up to now, completely "ignored." That last part is something that I can testify to - in spades, and then some.

Quantum Spirituality: Perspective and Balance!


In a sense, many physicists in acquiring 'knowledge' derived from quantum physics, appears to have come full circle, and modern physicists now have to confront and irresolvable problem and the Paradox of Chaos. Now that modern scientists are now facing the unknowable Unknown, and looked point blank into the abyss and the void, the physicists themselves have seem to think that, perhaps, after all, those prehistoric human beings may not have been completely off base an unrealistic as they have earlier thought. Physicists seem to have learned to put spirituality and religious beliefs in perspective because of how the mind deals with utter chaos and the void.


Neil Bohr's observation about Reality and Truth, in light of discoveries about the "Real" Ultimate Physical Reality which have been made by Quantum Physics, was that as a result of discoveries, "Everything we call real is made of things that cannot be regarded as real!" The bottom line is that  quantum mechanics and quantum entanglement are beyond the cause and effect of ordinary orthodox physics.  Wolfgang Pauli was careful to make a distinction that “although [particle physics] allows for an acausal form of observation, it actually has no use for the concept of ‘meaning’!” That is, human understanding and comprehension of reality is, likely, in the end only an interpretation. The Nobel prize-winning physicist Brian Josephson, who won the Nobel prize for Quantum tunneling, concluded as a result of his understanding of quantum physicists that precognition and mental telepathy are actual real hypothetical theoretical possibilities. 


Walczak, echoing the physicist Pauli stated: "To do full justice to reality, we must engage it from different perspectives. That is the philosophical principle of complementarity. It is a lesson in humility that quantum theory forces to our attention Complementarity is both a feature of physical reality and a lesson in wisdom. You have to view the world in different ways to do it justice, and the different ways can each be very rich, can each be internally consistent, can each have its own language and rules. But they may be mutually incompatible — and to do full justice to reality, you have to take both of them into account."


Max Planck, a German physicist whose discovery of energy quanta won him the Nobel Prize in 1918. Physics in 1918. Planck’s fame came from his creation of quantum theory and quantum mechanics. Planck came to the conclusion that “consciousness [is] fundamental. [And that] matter is derivative from consciousness. We cannot get behind consciousness. Everything that we talk about, everything that we regard as existing, postulates consciousness.


Later Planck observed, “As a man who has devoted his whole life to the most clear-headed science, to the study of matter, I can tell you as a result of my research about atoms this much: There is no matter as such. All matter originates and exists only by virtue of a force which brings the particle of an atom to vibration and holds this most minute solar system of the atom together. We must assume behind this force the existence of a conscious and intelligent mind. This mind is the matrix of all matter.” 



                                            What a Nightmare - The Mustard Seed!

in any objective, scientific, or any psycholgocially realistic or worldly way, I should not have been able to do what I actually did, in fact, do on October 18, 1981 in Toledo, Ohio. At that time, consciously, I did not believe in prophecy, psychic, miracles, Christ or God. In fact, cognitively I had strong feelings that all beliefs in the supernatural are superstitious nonsense and mental illness. though at the moment I now have about ten or so documented spiritual-psychic experiences, most being tags, at the time I had no written documents of any spiritual-psychic experiences, and in spite of that fact, there I was, an unknown who walked into the FBI office on toledo, Ohio to warn them about a possible terrorist event - an event that I consciously did not believe would happen in a million years. It shouldn’t have been able to happen by all the psychological principles and laws known to science. But it did. For me, it still a complete mystery as to what happened or how it happened to this day. 
Events Leading Up To 10-18-1981

About six months or so prior to the "What a nightmare" experience I had a premonition fo sorts that resident Reagan would be attacked. After some extensive conversations with a young woman named TJ – and finally called the FBI to warn of what I thought might be an impending attack on President Reagan. Right off the bat, FBI agent told me I really should be calling the Secret Service since that is their department. The FBI agent did ask my name and took me by surprise when he asked me when I thought this attack might occur. I did give him an answer but I don’t recall how close it might have been, since I didn’t write anything down – because I didn’t believe in the stuff at the time. 

Since, at that time, I did not conssciosuly believe in either spirituality or psychic of any kind - in any way - that phone call to the FBI caused a rather intense and very emotional internal conflcit. I turned things over and over in my mind for hours - endlessly. rom experince I can teel you doubts and fears can eat you alive if you let them. A psychologist said to try writing things down, which I tried a few times. There were a coupel fo interesting "tags" as it were. One whcih had "assassiantion" as the central action also had "Reagan's Ball" as an item. I had, when I wrote it down, thought perhaps to write "parade" down instead of "Ball" - but didn't. Within a week Sadat was assassianted at a parade. The "tag" also had "lynch pin" in it and a grenade was used.

When I fianlly sat down and thought things over, I came to the conlcusion that one needs soem kind of good reason or purpose to do something like that (or anything really) - especially soemthign like prdictions fo the future which minimally would take a great deal of effort psycholgoically speaking. That is, making predictions to amke predictiosn didn't make any sense to me - psycholgocially, biologically, physiologically, or spiritually. Documented psychic pehnomena (as well as my ealry trial and errors) bear that out. Jeane Dixon, Edgar Cayce, and Nostradamus all had a high rate of failures by any reasonable evaluation. 

Edgar Cayce, known as the Sleeping Prophet, when it came to his "earth change" predictions had some massive failures. He had a major "prediction" whcih was actually  a long list of major earth change catastrophes (earthquakes, etc.) that were supposd to ahppen in 1998. Every single one of them was wrong - including one saying that the entire Island of Japan would fall intto the sea. I am not an Edgar Cayce scholar but a defintie impression I had from my overview is that Edgar Caye had a better tracjk record when trying to help individuals than when asked questions about global future events. When giving readings for soldier durign WWII many of his "readings" were pretty much on target. I didn't do that research until decades aler, but, in retrospect, it does appear that my "read" that one's "purpose" is perhaps the most important aspect or characteristic of spiritual-psychic experiences was correct. I do try to empahsize, at times, that, in my view, it is more important what you do with it than what it is or provign the existnece of "Spirit" or psychic.           
 
One of the factors that makes the "What a nightmare-Mustard Seed" experience such an enigma and a mystery, is that - at first glance - the "What a nightmare" stream of consciosuness appears to be the ravings of a madman. Months later, when I looked back and thought it over later, it struck me as actually being pretty bizarre that the FBI agent, who I talked to about my precognitive perception of terrorism, didn’t just throw a net over me and have me hauled away to the local insane asylum. The "What a nightmare" was a completely uninhibited Unconscious stream of consciousness which was loaded to the gills with all sorts of religious and metaphorical symbolism and rhetoric. There were references to "I spit in Satan's face," "angels," "prophets," "exorcism," "nuns," - as well as some Jungian symbolic imagery such as "jungle," "snakes," and "monkey screams." 

I might briefly mention that the weathermen terrorist group involved, which was a splinter group of the Vietnam era student SDS movement, were communists. "The Jungle" was a socialist classic novel written in 1906 by journalist and novelist Upton Sinclair (1878–1968). The Jungle vividly describes the cruel and inhumane working conditions of immigrants and workers in Chicago. Sicnlair's purpose in writing the novel was to expose the ruthless exploitation of workers by capitlaists as well as to advance the cause of scoialiasm. Especially in light of a colletive consciousness, that might expalin all the references to "jungle" imagery. I shoudl highlight that this was the most detailed and "raw" as the remote vieweing researcher Russell Targ might say (which he relates tend to be the most detialed) so being totally and compltelty uninhibited would appear to be a major influence in how What a nightmare turned out as detailed as it did. Of course, I shoudl say, i have no idea where "I spit in Satan's face" came from. All I can say is: "Don't try this at home!" I should mention that in thinking over why the agent didn't react in a more hostile fashion, it did cross my mind that perhaps the agent I talked to happened to have the same agent I spoke to before Reagan's assassination attempt. 

Things seemed to come to a climax shortly after that in October. On the evening of October 17, 1981, after waking from a nightmare about terrorism of which I had actually very little recollection, I wrote down a stream of consciousness as I sat at my large wooden desk overlooking the muddy and dirty Maumee river. I titled the very wild stream of consciousness, “What a nightmare!” It was completely uninhibited – one of the reasons I believe it turned out as detailed and accurate as it did.   
What a Nightmare

The next day, on October 18,1981, I notarized the prediction-warning. Then, I carried the precognitive warning into the Toledo, Ohio FBI office. In the foyer of the FBI office there was a door to the inner office with a window beside it. I rang the doorbell and when an agent appeared I said, “I have information about terrorism.” The FBI agent, who was dressed in a suit, seemed, in my "memory" at least, to be built like a fullback. The agent led me into a small cubicle off the foyer and we sat down at a tiny table. 

The FBI agent glanced at my stream of consciousness and I saw his eyebrows lift just a little. There aren’t a whole lot of lines in the wild and unrestrained “What a nightmare” stream of consciousness which could be said to be straightforward statements, so I pointed out to the FBI agent the lines “a group with money fabricates a terrible bomb,” and the line which had “a woman and money are keys” in it. And when I got to the line that said ‘New York or Miami’ I asked the FBI agent which he thought it would be. He angrily snapped, “How the HELL should I know, it is your dream!”  I hastily pointed out “New York.” The interview was over that quickly.

When we stepped outside of the cubicle, the FBI agen, just like the one did when I called aboutt he upcoming assassiantion attmept on Presidnet Reagan, caught me by surprise when he asked me a couple of questions. I was surprised again when the FBI agent asked when I thought this event would happen. Spontaneously, off the top of my head, I replied saying something about my birthday - which is October 23rd. As it turned out that was pretty close - only a couple of days off. For the record, as far as timing that is pretty good in view of other prediction-warnings. In psychic literature, dates are like hens’ teeth. The FBI agent took me by complete surprise when he asked, “What should I do about this?” It occurred to me that this FBI agent might well have been the FBI agent I had talked to when I had warned about the President Reagan assassination attempt. I mean, he hadn’t thrown a net over me and hauled me away to the local lunatic asylum when he saw my precognitive “What a nightmare” stream of consciousness which appeared at first glance to be the ravings of a madman.
 
I gave him an off-the-cuff answer, which didn’t make a whole lot of sense. What I should have done is reasoned it out. If either of us had thought about it, the stream of consciousness had “money” in it twice as well as “security bonds” once, so one might have thought a bank or an armored truck would be involved. Had the FBI warned Brink’s armored truck since the terrorist attack involved a Brink’s armored truck, then a couple of people might have been saved. Two policemen and one Brink’s armored guard were killed in the attack. Of course, had I only come up with the name “Brink’s” as opposed to “22 were assembled” then that definitely would have helped. In retrospect, it was like we were both actors on a stage. I don’t think either one of us – consciously - really believed it would come true. I had strutted and fretted away my moment of glory and fame. Furthermore, at the time I really had no idea of its import or significance. 

After my conversation with the FBI agent on October 18th I didn’t see anything on the news. And, I didn’t visit the library to check to see if there were any newspaper articles for two or three weeks. When I finally went to the Toledo library to check in the New York Times, it turned out that two days after I spoke with the FBI agent, Katherine Boudin, a notorious leader of the Weathermen terrorist group, was arrested after a shootout with the Nyack, New York police force which, by chance or fate, had 22 officers. The shootout resulted after a chase which started with the botched robbery of a Brink’s armored truck. Bomb making materials and plans were found in the terrorists’ apartment. Hence, my reference in the “What a nightmare” warning to “fabricating bombs” was an incredibly precise and very accurate description - in light of the fact that no bombs had actually been made, yet it was clear that they had the plans as well as the materials so they were working on them. The title, “What a nightmare” identifies the Weathermen manifesto's statement, “We are the incubation of your mothers’ worst nightmares.” The "What a nightmare" title is like having icing on the cake because it identifies a specific individual group, the Weathermen, or Weather Underground, and not just predicting a generalized terrorist group.  
                                                       
                                         Separating the Wheat from the Chaff!

In most all things, one needs to be separate the wheat from the chaff. While, the precognitive “What a nightmare” stream of consciousness appears, at first glance, to be the ravings of a madman, an analysis which eliminates the sentences which are not straightforward statements (the chaff) does, in fact, reveal the wheat. For instance, I eliminated all prolific statements of metaphor and symbolism - as well as the statements with “come to mind” because they are strictly speaking straightforward statements. Also, I took the liberty of eliminating the hyperemotional statements about the bomb the Weathermen planned to build. Somewhat surprisngly, after that is done, you are left with saome fairly straightforwaras statements that for the most paert make sense. 

                                                                 The Wheat     
 After Separating the Wheat from the Chaff!

1. “What a nightmare” (the title, word occurs 6 times: matches the Weathermen manifesto)
2. “A group with money fabricates a terrible bomb”
3. “In a nightmare it came to me that 22 were assembled”
4. “Security bonds – money - a woman – keys to the whole thing” (money occurs twice)
5. “New York” (I had trouble “locating” the action; I verbally indicated “New York” to the FBI agent)
6. “Time is at hand! Time is at hand an angel spoke.” (Timing is soon – two days later)
7. Fight Hard! Die Well – a prophet spoke. (two policemen and one Brink’s guard died)

Conclusion: After eliminating the chaff what you are left with are the pieces of the puzzle – and only the pieces of the puzzle. I would emphasize again that the "uninhibited" characteristic of "What a nightmare" and the fact that it was a warning and not a prediction is what resulted in the rather exceptional detail and accuracy of "What a nightmare."  

I should say that, in reading the New York Times article, my sense of it was that it seemed to me it was as if Katherine Boudin, the woman leader of the robbery gang, had said to me, in their manifesto statement, “We are the incubation of your mothers’ worst nightmare!” - telepathically. And, in the title, I responded – telepathically, of course – “What a nightmare!” For me it seemed a somewhat detached - and almost humorous - commentary to not only her acts and ideology, but to the entire experience.  It's like I was saying to her, "Incubation of my mother's worst nightmare?? Really??  Further, I would note that the entire highly emotional tone with content of highly charged symbolism of the “What a nightmare” stream of consciousness seems to match the emotional content and the “bravura” of their manifesto.

There appears to be some symbolic synchronicities in the "Mustard Seed" precognitive stream of consciousness. The statements: “Time is at hand! Time is at hand, Angels said.” and “Fight Hard, Die Well! A prophet spoke!” could be construed to symbolize the deaths od the policemen and the Brink's guard. The angels declaring Timer is at hand could be seen to symbolize the deaths of the two policeman who were killed by the Weathermen terrorists, while the prophet’s statement, “Fight Hard, Die Well” could be said to symbolize the one Brink’s guard who was killed. In this symbolic interpretation, the angels that symbolize the policemen could in this allegorty be said to outrank the “prophet” who prophesied the death of the Brink’s guard.

                                                        The Holy Spirit and Transcendence

First, I would say that, for various reasons, it took me twenty or thirty years to sort out all the conscious and nonconscious implications of the “What a nightmare” experience, as well as the spiritual and religious meanings involved. Second, I would point out that in detail and ‘accuracy,’ the precognitive “What a nightmare” warning-prediction is truthfully and historically quite exceptional – and as such deserves attention. Honestly, in comparing the “What a nightmare” experience to Edgar Cayce, Jeane Dixon, Nostradamus (his famous quatrain 35 only had 6 details), as well as the Old Testament prophets of Ezekiel and Jeremiah, I haven’t found anything quite like it. What is really bizarre about the “What a nightmare” experience is that, at the time, I actually did NOT believe in psychic, miracles, prophecy, or revelation in the least. So, the question is: How could such a nonbeliever-person such as myself was able to turn out such a rather exceptionally detailed prediction-warning?

An analogy might be to compare what happened to a marathon runner who has had no training whatsoever, shown no inclination or ability for marathon races, who has showed up, and suddenly - out of nowhere – turned out an incredibly blistering and “super” record time of running a marathon. In retrospect, the way I look at it is that “Charlie Peck” - by himself - could not possibly have done that by himself. The only possible conclusion would be that – somehow - some way, I had either transcended my worldly constraints, as it were, or there were “spiritual” (external) forces at work that “made it happen.” 

That factor coupled with the emotional aspect of the experience as well as the spiritual and religious aspects is why I reached the conclusion that the experience was an expression of the Holy Spirit. In the “What a nightmare” stream of consciousness was pregnant with religious and spiritual symbolism, as it were – with angles, prophets, exorcism, not to mention a nun. The final line was: “the Faith – the Mustard Seed. It almost seemed Christ was there.” I should emphasize that is pretty wild since at the time I definitely and absolutely did NOT believe in God, miracles, revelations, prophecy, Christ or Christianity – not even in the least. Yet there it is. 

I honestly cannot explain the presence of all that spiritual and religious symbolism – especially the reference to the “Mustard Seed.” I must say that I grew up without any religious education or training, so I’m not sure exactly where I picked up any knowledge of the parable of the Mustard Seed, which is in Matthew (13:31–32), Mark (4:30–32), and Luke (13:18–19), as well as in the ’lost’ gnostic gospel of Thomas. In Matthew 13:31–32, the parable is as follows: “He set another man before them, saying, "The Kingdom of Heaven is like a grain of mustard seed, which a man took, and sowed in his field; which indeed is smaller than all seeds. But when it is grown, it is greater than the herbs, and becomes a tree, so that the birds of the air come and lodge in its branches."

It has crossed my mind that perhaps in certain things the human mind automatically reverts or goes to spiritual symbolism – or perhaps even Jungian archetypes but my sense of it is that doesn’t really fit all that well. That definitely does not fit all the exceptional detail in the notarized precognitive stream of consciousness. In any case, personally, my beliefs are that “What a nightmare” is an expression of the Holy Spirit. I do think it is important that people should realize for perspective that religious concepts are the only concepts that embrace concepts beyond ordinary and “normal” space-time. On top of that my sense of the experience and in my perception was that there was, from my perspective, an “intricate connectivity” was at work in the experience. The apparent existence of mental telepathy as evidenced by the tile, “What a nightmare” alone would seem to indicate an intricate connectivity.
Reflections and Commentary

 The Mustard Seed Parable about the Kingdom of God, taken as a metaphor for Transcendent Spirit, especially in context of Luke 17:21 where Jesus says “The Kingdom of God is within you.” woudl be that the worth or value of Transcendent Spirit is in the creation and growth and not in the transcnendent experience - seed - itself. As Christ said, “The Spirit gives life; the flesh counts for nothing. (John 6:63).

“But when he, the Spirit of truth, comes, he will guide you into all truth.” (John 16:13). That is also soemthign I can testify to since the Truth has been a central issue with me - especially the Truth imminent in the beleif structure of the woirld as well as in theology.  

John 3: 8 The wind blows where it wishes. You hear its sound, but you do not know where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit.” I must confess that I can testify to that at some length because, from personal expericnes, at times stuff comes at you - in the mind - and I'm not always sure where it came from or what it is about.
     
  

             


Footnote: the FBI, wiretaps, hacking, and all the rest of that horse-hockey!


Recently, I was missing a file - a word program - that was an important one as well as a couple of others. A "documented" instance is that a couple of years ago, I got two emails from two different legislative aides of two different U.S. Senators with images attached I couldn't open. When I clicked on them images from a screenshots file I did not know existed and didn't put there (I actually don't know how to do a screenshot). A knowledgeable person I talked to said that definitely was a hack. 


There are a lot of strange things that happen. There are also a couple of 'incidents' that go back to around 2001 and 1984. When I copied my "What a nightmare" link onto two FB groups when I posted the link, the last part of the "What a nightmare" URL had a Japanese cartoon character on it. An article I read in the Washington post (pre-9/11 I believe) the article stated that a Congressional investigation revealed that a fair amount of unauthorized wiretapping had occurred. With 'intelligence' it would be much more difficult to supervise. For instance a fair amount is subcontracted out and 'intelligence' includes a large number of different agencies (170 or so?). 


I complained about it. The point I emphasized is that much of this most likely is occurring because, to my knowledge my "What a nightmare" document is not in the FBI central indexes. I didn't really think about it until after 9/11. My reasoning is that since I got my "What a nightmare" document by directly contacting the office of Cleveland FOIPA and not through my FOIPA request, that it wasn't in the central indexes (unclassified). Furthermore, if it had been in the central indexes, the Secret Service agent who I spoke to in 1984 would not have given me 's**t.


When I spoke to Baltimore FBI agent Michelle M., after I sent in my complaint to the Inspector General, she avoided saying anything about "What a nightmare," and downplayed hacking. It is clear The U.S. government is suppressing information about "What a nightmare." 


Recently, I was missing a file-word program that was an important one as well as a couple of others. A "documented" instance is that a couple of years ago, I got two emails from two different legislative aides of two different U.S. Senators with images attached I couldn't open. When I clicked on them images from a screenshots file I did not know existed and didn't put there (I actually don't know how to do a screenshot). A knowledgeable person I talked to said that definitely was a hack. 


There are also a couple of 'incidents' that go back to around 2001 and 1984. There are a lot of strange things that happen. When I copied my "What a nightmare" link onto two FB groups when I posted the link, the last part of the "What a nightmare" URL had a Japanese cartoon character on it. In 1984 I heard a loud buzzing noise on the telephone, and after I called the CIA I watched as all my emails disappeared one by one. FBI agent Michelle M. said she had never heard of that before. I told her those events were real and my interpretation was that these events were less than random and happened intentionally. 


An article I read in the Washington post (pre-9/11 I believe) the article stated that a Congressional investigation revealed that a fair amount of unauthorized wiretapping had occurred. With 'intelligence' it would be much more difficult to supervise. For instance a fair amount is subcontracted out and 'intelligence' includes a large number of different agencies (170 or so?). 


For the record, I complained about it . The point I emphasized is that this hacking most likely is occurring because, to my knowledge my "What a nightmare" document is not in the FBI central indexes. I didn't really think about it until after 9/11. My reasoning is that since I got my "What a nightmare" document by directly contacting the office of Cleveland FOIPA and not through my FOIPA request, that it wasn't in the central indexes (unclassified). Furthermore, if it had been in the central indexes, the Secret Service agent who I spoke to in 1984 would not have given me 's**t.


When I spoke to Baltimore FBI agent Michelle M. after I sent in my complaint she avoided saying anything about "What a nightmare," and downplayed hacking. So, I have a notarized precognitive document, and FOIPA stated it wasn't in the central indexes, and I haven't gotten any response from either intelligence committees, or my federal reps. On top of that when I first talked to FBI agent Michelle, she remarked offhand about my "entertaining stories. My conclusion is that she doesn't have access to the "What a nightmare" document. It is clear The U.S. government is suppressing information about "What a nightmare." 


Lastly, when I spoke to the FBI agent in Toledo back in 1981, as I recall I said something that in retrospect would indicate that then President Reagan or someone in his administration was going to bury it, as it were, and in that way suppress my experience due to what I believe were probably severe prejudices due to religious beliefs. I ran across a website about "religious spirit" which stated that "religious spirit" is bad because people with "religious spirit" try to make changes (and we all know how perfect Christianity is at the moment). 


What is somewhat of a bitter irony is that, in 36 years of talking to a dozen or so psychologists/psychiatrists and also about the same number of "Christian leaders" not one asked me a single question about my experience and not one of the "Christian" leaders mentioned the "Mustard Seed" (Parable) at the end, which is, in a way, the pinnacle and whole point of the "What a nightmare - Mustard Seed" Transcendental Spiritual Experience. So, whoever made the decision to "spike" it (in intelligence terminology) had no idea what the spiritual experience was about or what I was about. 


In a nutshell, I have been bullied, intimidated, and even threatened from time to time, for roughly 38 years now and not one of the hypocrites - professionals - I dealt with had any idea of what I was about. Furthermore, as it turned out none of them had any facts or "numerous" studies done as Park and Paloutzian pointed out that demonstrate a "normalcy" to spiritual-psychic experiences - which is direct contradiction of mainstream psychology/psychiatry norms that spiritual experiences are "superstitious nonsense" or worse, "mental illness." 


At the end of the day, I have an exceptionally detailed and remarkable Transcendental Spiritual Experience, which is completely unique and which has never been done before -and does the DOJ-FBI do? - for all practical purposes done (and continue to do) everything they can to "bury it." Good thing I had the foresight to notarize the "What a nightmare -Mustard Seed" Transcendental Spiritual Experience! - huh? When it comes to transcendental spiritual experiences, not everything is all sweetness and light. 




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